It’s been a whole year since we lost Taylor and Jessy and the pain is still mind blowing. Every time either one of them cross my mind, I feel like I can’t even breathe. I never thought I would be the one to know what it was feel like to lose a friend so young, especially two in the same accident. In situations like this, blame is so easily placed. I even blame myself at times. I hate to even think about admitting that it’s partly their fault for leaving in their condition.
Even though is breaks my heart that they’re gone, I’m so happy that I knew them for the short time that I did. They were both really special to a lot of people. Stupid mistakes were made by both of them, but Taylor and Jessy were both such genuine, loving and caring people I’d ever met. I’m glad to have the memories of them that I do, but I’ll always wish they were still here to make more.
Forever loved <3 1/12/09
I’m full of useless information about the curse of that car.
So scary.
I noticed how beautiful the sky was the other night and I realized it’s because you’re up there.
If I had my life to live over, I’d dare to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax; I’d limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones.
You see, I’m one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have.
If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dance; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.
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Edge of Desire - John Mayer
What did Delaware?
A New Jersey?
I don’t know, but Alaska!
